confusion

I’m confused

My minds split in two

I can’t decide whether or not to love you

One half of me dares

to think of a future with you in it

wanting to care

every second of every day

the other half feels

a resistance holding back

that despite talk of the future

you may not want it like that

so I’m confused

I don’t know what to do

Do I say something?

Find out if you love me too?

Or ignore the feelings

And move on now.

If you want to follow, you will somehow.

Online Identity Crisis

A digital presence and online identity

Showing the world what I want them to see of me

Always be positive

Cover the flaws

Or speak with abstraction

As if they’re not yours

I give my opinion and express my views

Post environmental articles and tech news

A record of likes is there to see

But is all of this what makes me, me?

What’s underneath? Who’s thinking these things?

Am I just copying what my newsfeed brings?

I’d like to think there’s something more

Its just a positive reflection of what I stand for

But something bugs me as I share with everyone and no-one

That I’m moving further away from a life with someone

Content with surface relationships, far away

Local society has had its day

I miss the connection of a friendly neighbor

Who’ll be there whether or not he’s called for

Emotions are raw, and happening now

And someone just being there can help somehow

Comments can’t be deleted, or taken back

But to really experience, I think we need that

Independance

For years I’ve been trying

to find my independence

practice love without attachment

need no other to make me happy

And finally I’ve found it

Carved a path like no other

With no one to hold me back

As I pursue my goals

But this path is so unique

It gets lonely always moving

Tiring to start again

Each step that I take

Now that I want someone to share it

How can I ask them to join me?

Divert their own path

To follow my dreams

I need it to be

Their path as well as mine

Shared goals and ambitions

As we try to create a life

But my path is so unique

To find another on it

That’s not just temporary

Seems so hard …

Will I find it?

I’ll wait and see

Fear

your words inspire me

light a fire inside me

the excitement of your youth

on a quest to share the truth

it inspires me to write again

to feel, to love, I might again

but experience has taught me

to be wary of this story

those butterflies don’t last

good intentions can die fast

I want to feel your energy

to share my heart and so feel free

but fear still has it’s grip on me

I’ll try to fight it, and we’ll see

lynne

In my mind you will forever be,

a scar on my left ankle.

Electrifying storms,

and magical plankton.

A firefly leads the way

To where I don’t know

You run too fast

Until it’s time to go.

Peace

We talked and I began to dream,

of ways to find this peace on earth.

What if soldiers all put down their weapons?

and refused to kill their fellow man,

if people all came together ,

and would not do what they are told,

but create a new world,

a different system,

where you do not fight for what is right,

but learn to know a life worth living,

and help each other along the way.

We have the tools to share our knowledge,

connections all around the world,

and if we build them , strong, with love,

we’ll find this peace of which I’ve heard.