Polyamory

Some might call me a slut...

... but only when i want to be,
and with who i want to be,
like life, i like my men easy
so i call it polyamory

Experiments with polyamory

Is something to do while your young and free

I need to concentrate on being just me

But that doesn't mean I don't get horny!

I have different lovers for different days

And love each one in different ways

I let them feel my passion,

The physical attraction

But commit to no one

The only promise is I'll be gone.

it can be lonely

Letting my heart be so free

But it doesn't need to last forever

One day I hope to find something better

A love so strong you need nothing more

And it doesn't matter what went on before

But until that day I'll get my happiness from many sources

Feel that touch and call of many voices

No one man needs to satisfy me

He can do his thing and also be free

As long as no-one gets hurt, we can just be

Feeling the love of polyamory

the mind

The mind is lonely

It yearns for company

But, in reality

That part is not not me

The mind will worry

What may or may not be

I want to set it free

And learn the truth inside me

Falling in love

I loved you before we even kissed
that look in your eyes couldn't be missed
Our messages confirmed what I knew to be true
The connection was real, you felt it too
So when we met, it felt so right
to cover you in kisses and hold you tight
You never know what the future holds
My heart is pumping to see what unfolds

confusion

I’m confused

My minds split in two

I can’t decide whether or not to love you

One half of me dares

to think of a future with you in it

wanting to care

every second of every day

the other half feels

a resistance holding back

that despite talk of the future

you may not want it like that

so I’m confused

I don’t know what to do

Do I say something?

Find out if you love me too?

Or ignore the feelings

And move on now.

If you want to follow, you will somehow.

Online Identity Crisis

A digital presence and online identity

Showing the world what I want them to see of me

Always be positive

Cover the flaws

Or speak with abstraction

As if they’re not yours

I give my opinion and express my views

Post environmental articles and tech news

A record of likes is there to see

But is all of this what makes me, me?

What’s underneath? Who’s thinking these things?

Am I just copying what my newsfeed brings?

I’d like to think there’s something more

Its just a positive reflection of what I stand for

But something bugs me as I share with everyone and no-one

That I’m moving further away from a life with someone

Content with surface relationships, far away

Local society has had its day

I miss the connection of a friendly neighbor

Who’ll be there whether or not he’s called for

Emotions are raw, and happening now

And someone just being there can help somehow

Comments can’t be deleted, or taken back

But to really experience, I think we need that

Independance

For years I’ve been trying

to find my independence

practice love without attachment

need no other to make me happy

And finally I’ve found it

Carved a path like no other

With no one to hold me back

As I pursue my goals

But this path is so unique

It gets lonely always moving

Tiring to start again

Each step that I take

Now that I want someone to share it

How can I ask them to join me?

Divert their own path

To follow my dreams

I need it to be

Their path as well as mine

Shared goals and ambitions

As we try to create a life

But my path is so unique

To find another on it

That’s not just temporary

Seems so hard …

Will I find it?

I’ll wait and see

Fear

your words inspire me

light a fire inside me

the excitement of your youth

on a quest to share the truth

it inspires me to write again

to feel, to love, I might again

but experience has taught me

to be wary of this story

those butterflies don’t last

good intentions can die fast

I want to feel your energy

to share my heart and so feel free

but fear still has it’s grip on me

I’ll try to fight it, and we’ll see