Lonliness

A beautiful man lies next to me

And yet all I feel is lonely

I can’t help but feel

The connections not real

I lick and suck

We kiss and fuck

But there’s nothing deeper

Its all theatre

I get an invite to a fancy sex party

Fuck guys and girls in what once was a fantasy

Live my dreams of 3s, 4s and 5s

Get fucked my men while I kiss their wives

Beautiful people all around me

Yet still can’t help but feel lonely

I flirt online trying to make a connection

Post photos of myself to grab attention

A few sentances to try and describe me

Make it look like I’m happy and carefree

But they don’t know the real me

But no matter what I still feel lonely

I say I’m happy by myself

Working hard and in good health

On my path there’s no time for a partner

But there’s no one there to share my laughter

No one to speak to when I’m feeling down

And turn my frown the other way round

No-one who really cares about me

All I feel is lonely

The mistake I’m making is plain to see

I’m trying to fill a hole too desperately

I need to feel happy in myself

With myself and be by myself

I need to be happy with being me

Then I wont feel so lonely